TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY (:

happy to lay here.

happy to be here. in this earth.

i love the life i have .

poles.

what is this world coming to?

i dont recognize myself.

i look in the mirror and say:"who is this girl that stands before me?"

i see pictures of myself. from the younger years and say: " why am i aging everyday? Can this process go faster?"

i do not feel 13.

i feel 16.

a girl that could look at herself in the mirror and say:"wow! i love my life! i love myself! i love my age!"

but no. that doesnt happen to me.

i want to age. faster. but then. get to 16-20 and stop. no more.

i am here to stay.

for life.

i wish i was a vampire.

ahhaha.

im sick of heart breaks

and realationships.

i want to find my inner self.

today i say no.

tomorrow i say yes to whatever comes my way..

please. no. yes maybe!

Tomorrow is a new day!

sweet dreams (:

tired heart

me
you.
me.
you
me
+
you
=
<3>

those words can be so different. but together. they give me the chills.
i have been hiding my feelings in for you. for so long!
when you go.
i find you.
when i go.
...
there is a big whole. in my chest. and you are not going to come back. you love someone different. and you just dont get how much i loved you! now. bridges are building.
and your not my constructor.

I AM CARLY CATHERINE BARTOSIEWICZ

kicking and screaming

here it is. depressing words

dont feel my heart with sorrow.

no more depressing thoughts in my head.

im going deeper.

deeper into the ground

deeper into life.

i am going to figure things out.

no more laziness

no idiodicness.

im all 100% carly catherine bartosiewicz

thats who i am.

and if you dont care. or except me.

screw you.

i am who i am and you cant change me.

so what if i drink coffee?

so what if im not a mormon.

so what if i am a christian!

i have left the molly mormoness

so you can stop trying brooke.

my friends are the ones who except me for who i am.

You know ......? i dont freaking care.

about what you think of me

because take it or leave it i am the way i am.

Im so sick of judgement.

of words.

of subtitles.

im so sick. of black and white!!!! what is the difference?

white's are just regular people .. with some features..

black's lets face it.- they are amazing singers! STOP JUDGING!

who cares about mormon? or christian?

you should be there for me no matter what church i choose. and lets face it! ive already chosen. im being christian!

so. its your loss. if you cant respect that decission.

Mormons- stop judging.

im so glad to be outside of the box and finally figuring out that JESUS CHRIST IS GOD! THE ONE AND ONLY!

believe what you want to believe. but i really dont think that piercings and coffee are the things that god really cares about.

BREATH.

Roses.

flamingoes

close your eyes and imagen. what heaven is going to be like.

close your eyes and imagen.. me with you.

close your eyes and imagen.

just clost your eyes for a minute. and let all of your judgment fly out of your mind.

ive decided.

exceptence.

is the key.

EXCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM

IM PROUD TO BE CHRISTIAN. ITS THE TRUTH

i am carly catherine bartosiewicz

BELIEVE IN ME.

church.

christian.

GOD.

Help me figure out who i am. what my purpose here is on this earth.

I need to find my inner self.

HOPE.

Grace.

GOD= Grace.

Blushing.

Cheeks go red.

Chips.

When you find the one you think is your life its not- till death do you part. its till eternity to you part.

on my mind.

every one needs someone to believe in i have an answer.. you want some one that understands you? that believes that you can accomplish ANYTHING in your life.. some one that is with you in your head every second? answer= JESUS CHRIST.

BELIEVE IN HIM.

dont be in a box all of the time. because thats just going to ship you off to NEVERLAND.

Love yourself.

Think OUTSIDE of the box. and figure out who you truly are.

Because when the results come. your whole life will change.

you know what they say- big things come in small packages.

thoughts come in your head. Like clouds in the sky.

i love you to the stars above.

i hate you like a fiery passion stronger than the sun? NO. I love you with a fiery passion that is stronger than the sun.

BELIEVE IN CHRIST.

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF.

BELIEVE IN ME.

WHERE IS MY MIND?

all night.
all morning.

alone.

with out some one to call my own..

do i turn to a new path?
YES NO check.

do i figure out who i am today?
NO YEScheck.

Every one in this world. has a chance. to be safe. be wanted. they want to know that if they jumped off a bridge that someone would cry. and their life would end to.

Every word. Every Sentence. Every Laugh. Every Kiss. Makes me feel special. to know that someone out there is caring for me.
God, understands me.

God, cares about my heart.

God, Feels me every heart break that i have.

God, hears me.

God, watches my movement.
God, is loving me every second of the day.

God, doesnt care if i drink coffee.

God, listens to me.

God, loves me.

If i cant tell you whats going on GOD is the only one that knows.
I hope. you get your heart back. Can i have my key?
U hurt me.
now i fall down. sit

Moving vans.

Broken glass.

Tears on my cheek.

What am i doing wrong?
Why is this such a fairytale?

I hate that i love you.

LET ME BE DONE
LET ME LIVE MY LIFE.

WITH OUT THE DRAMA
WITH OUT YOU.

cry. inside. let this pain be gone. dont talk anymore. only eye contact. please let me go. let me be. there are 1,000,000's of fish in the sea. And im just a pretty pearl. in a clam.

GOD. MADE ME LIKE THIS.

DONT CHANGE ONE HAIR ON MY HEAD.

WHERE IS MY MIND?