A SHINY NEW TOY

hurt.

used as some kind of

TOY.

but. I'm the shiny new

TOY.

the one that every boy wants.

to hold.

to play with .

to touch.

to carry.

I'm a new subject!

but.

then there becomes a

PROBLEM.

there becomes another new toy.

one new thing that no one has seen before.

they cant wait to get they're hands

on it.

Then i am just placed back

in the box. with all the other "OLD TOYS"

i am now. in the box.

with all the other broken hearts.

stolen.

shipped across the sea.

finally. some little boy

picks me up.

dust's me off and smiles at me.

then. he finally realizes.

that i am HIS toy.

then all the other kids start wanting me again.

just because someone else found me.

then they get jealous.

of my beauty of how much this guy loves me.

then i once again

become the shiny new toy.

the one that everyone wants to love, to hold, to touch, and to play with.

but they wont stand a chance.

because the boy that found me. Loves me.

and found me.

picked me.

out of all the other toys

he could have chosen.

he liked me for me.

and not just because i was a shiny new toy.

he thought i was special.

he didn't care that i wasn't a new subject.

he loved me for the person i was.

and i didn't have to be a shiny new toy.

for him to figure that out.

CarlyCatherine

death. and immortality

life is hard.

death is much simpler.

i do not want to rot in the ground when i die.

you. are my grave.

instead of rotting inside a cold

hard piece of cement.

i want to be with you.

i want to still hear your voice whispering in my ear.

i don't want to die.

i want to face my life's battle.

i want to be able to be the first person

who figured out how to become immortal.

and stay that way.

but i wish to not grow older.

i wish to stay or become 16.

i wish you could be

immortal

with me

then we could live together.

and never die.

i wish i was a rock.

could experience all the different lives that i have seen.

if the walls could talk.

they would tell me all the stories

they have seen.

CarlyCatherine

open.

open doors.

sun. is beaming into daylight.

give me all your silence.

lets not speak words.

lets communicate with just our eyes.

chills.

start at my feet .

..

then go up all the way up..

to my spine.

then i make a smile.

a little grin comes out the side of my cheek.

i put my fingers through my hair.

I'm asking you...

all kinds of questions.

i love the way you speak.

you put love songs in my dreams.

my heart has started.

after years of waiting.

all the cobwebs

and dusty engines

are working up again.

just for you.

i make a smile.

twirling my fingers around in the dust.

i want some answers to my questions.

rapping and twisting my washed.

and partially wet hair around.

my fingers.

singing.

actually shouting.

random lyrics to the song.

CarlyCatherine