STAY WITH ME

hunger.

starvation.

obese.

judgment.

sometimes people are meant to be lost from your life

I'm not a toy.

don't use me.

don't break my heart.

I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve.

i believe in myself.

lets keep it that way.

not a good day.

kidnapped.

friends.

true friends are the ones who stick to you like hot glue.

just friends are the ones that stick to you like a glue stick. it can fall of you easily.

i like you.

not love.

things have changed.

things have turned my whole life around.

January.

February.

March.

April.

May.
June.
July

August.

September.

October.

November.

December.

Love on the rocks.

hiding from outside.

look at the window.

want to get out.

scream!

let me in!

let me go!

i need you.

i need you to comfort me

I've given you 1,000 second chances.

your time is up.

let me be.

let me go.

depressive.

depressing.

plugging my ears with my fingers from the outside world.

NO MORE

listening.

just thoughts.

reading your mind.

the expression on your face is giving me chills!

let you go?

let you stay?

close my eyes and whisper: "never give up"

close my eyes and say to my self: "forget it all"

close my eyes and scream: "i want you back!"

close my eyes and say: "be with me forever"

close my eyes and cry: "why wont you be with me?"

close my eyes and tear:"what am i doing wrong?"

Wondering.

Pondering.

Entering.

Leaving.

Cry.

Weep.

Smile.

Laugh.

pounding my head.

thinking to myself.

i love you.

don't forget me.

i miss us.

don't leave me.

STAY WITH ME.

undecided love

love is uncertain.

love is unkind.

love is mean.

love is tear full.

but when you find the right person to love, love is awesome!

love is amazing. and is the only thing that keeps my heart beating.. thanks for loving me for who i am (: and not judging me for who im not

i love you
my tear drops fade off my cheek for i have found that love is-

UNDECIDED

MAKING THE BEST OF A BRAND NEW DAY!

rain drops fall down on my toes.

happiness

i love life.

snow.why are you coming when its so near summer?

life comes slower.

i am making today a happy day (:

realizing that some people can be left behind :(

guys are like stars- there are millions of them but only one can make your dreams come true.

rain. makes me smile.

warm rain. makes me laugh.

to help us grow

i have a smile on my face (:

today is going to be good day (:

me and you. are together.

finally. now my heart is half full

and half

...

empty.

...

ink.

love.

summer.

SURPRISE!

confetti!

parties!

tanning!

fall into water.

swim. with your clothes on.

love your life. like me.

love me.

hate me.

loathe me.

kiss me.

hold me.

feel me.

need me.

wet.

dry.

cold.

hot.

chills every where on my body.

tracing?

my arms?

my face?

my legs?

62~ degrees!

sweat shirt.

cakes.

brownies.

peanut m&ms.

taco time! (:

life is amazing.

i am happy and i love life. but today i have so many things to be sad for!

but i guess I'm just making the best of a brand new day!

I AM HERE TO STAY (:

MAKING THE BEST OF A BRAND NEW DAY !

TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY (:

happy to lay here.

happy to be here. in this earth.

i love the life i have .

poles.

what is this world coming to?

i dont recognize myself.

i look in the mirror and say:"who is this girl that stands before me?"

i see pictures of myself. from the younger years and say: " why am i aging everyday? Can this process go faster?"

i do not feel 13.

i feel 16.

a girl that could look at herself in the mirror and say:"wow! i love my life! i love myself! i love my age!"

but no. that doesnt happen to me.

i want to age. faster. but then. get to 16-20 and stop. no more.

i am here to stay.

for life.

i wish i was a vampire.

ahhaha.

im sick of heart breaks

and realationships.

i want to find my inner self.

today i say no.

tomorrow i say yes to whatever comes my way..

please. no. yes maybe!

Tomorrow is a new day!

sweet dreams (:

tired heart

me
you.
me.
you
me
+
you
=
<3>

those words can be so different. but together. they give me the chills.
i have been hiding my feelings in for you. for so long!
when you go.
i find you.
when i go.
...
there is a big whole. in my chest. and you are not going to come back. you love someone different. and you just dont get how much i loved you! now. bridges are building.
and your not my constructor.

I AM CARLY CATHERINE BARTOSIEWICZ

kicking and screaming

here it is. depressing words

dont feel my heart with sorrow.

no more depressing thoughts in my head.

im going deeper.

deeper into the ground

deeper into life.

i am going to figure things out.

no more laziness

no idiodicness.

im all 100% carly catherine bartosiewicz

thats who i am.

and if you dont care. or except me.

screw you.

i am who i am and you cant change me.

so what if i drink coffee?

so what if im not a mormon.

so what if i am a christian!

i have left the molly mormoness

so you can stop trying brooke.

my friends are the ones who except me for who i am.

You know ......? i dont freaking care.

about what you think of me

because take it or leave it i am the way i am.

Im so sick of judgement.

of words.

of subtitles.

im so sick. of black and white!!!! what is the difference?

white's are just regular people .. with some features..

black's lets face it.- they are amazing singers! STOP JUDGING!

who cares about mormon? or christian?

you should be there for me no matter what church i choose. and lets face it! ive already chosen. im being christian!

so. its your loss. if you cant respect that decission.

Mormons- stop judging.

im so glad to be outside of the box and finally figuring out that JESUS CHRIST IS GOD! THE ONE AND ONLY!

believe what you want to believe. but i really dont think that piercings and coffee are the things that god really cares about.

BREATH.

Roses.

flamingoes

close your eyes and imagen. what heaven is going to be like.

close your eyes and imagen.. me with you.

close your eyes and imagen.

just clost your eyes for a minute. and let all of your judgment fly out of your mind.

ive decided.

exceptence.

is the key.

EXCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM

IM PROUD TO BE CHRISTIAN. ITS THE TRUTH

i am carly catherine bartosiewicz

BELIEVE IN ME.

church.

christian.

GOD.

Help me figure out who i am. what my purpose here is on this earth.

I need to find my inner self.

HOPE.

Grace.

GOD= Grace.

Blushing.

Cheeks go red.

Chips.

When you find the one you think is your life its not- till death do you part. its till eternity to you part.

on my mind.

every one needs someone to believe in i have an answer.. you want some one that understands you? that believes that you can accomplish ANYTHING in your life.. some one that is with you in your head every second? answer= JESUS CHRIST.

BELIEVE IN HIM.

dont be in a box all of the time. because thats just going to ship you off to NEVERLAND.

Love yourself.

Think OUTSIDE of the box. and figure out who you truly are.

Because when the results come. your whole life will change.

you know what they say- big things come in small packages.

thoughts come in your head. Like clouds in the sky.

i love you to the stars above.

i hate you like a fiery passion stronger than the sun? NO. I love you with a fiery passion that is stronger than the sun.

BELIEVE IN CHRIST.

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF.

BELIEVE IN ME.

WHERE IS MY MIND?

all night.
all morning.

alone.

with out some one to call my own..

do i turn to a new path?
YES NO check.

do i figure out who i am today?
NO YEScheck.

Every one in this world. has a chance. to be safe. be wanted. they want to know that if they jumped off a bridge that someone would cry. and their life would end to.

Every word. Every Sentence. Every Laugh. Every Kiss. Makes me feel special. to know that someone out there is caring for me.
God, understands me.

God, cares about my heart.

God, Feels me every heart break that i have.

God, hears me.

God, watches my movement.
God, is loving me every second of the day.

God, doesnt care if i drink coffee.

God, listens to me.

God, loves me.

If i cant tell you whats going on GOD is the only one that knows.
I hope. you get your heart back. Can i have my key?
U hurt me.
now i fall down. sit

Moving vans.

Broken glass.

Tears on my cheek.

What am i doing wrong?
Why is this such a fairytale?

I hate that i love you.

LET ME BE DONE
LET ME LIVE MY LIFE.

WITH OUT THE DRAMA
WITH OUT YOU.

cry. inside. let this pain be gone. dont talk anymore. only eye contact. please let me go. let me be. there are 1,000,000's of fish in the sea. And im just a pretty pearl. in a clam.

GOD. MADE ME LIKE THIS.

DONT CHANGE ONE HAIR ON MY HEAD.

WHERE IS MY MIND?

Hold my key safe

tears of hate.

tired eyes.

love you. written all over my arms.

good night sweet moon light.

good night hot sun.

while i go to bed.

ill leave you undone.

I love your face.

i love your love for me.

Good night my sweet love.

HOLD MY KEY SAFE

With out you. love not war.

with out you, babe.

my heart stops beating.

with out you, babe.

life is horrid.

with ou you, babe.

life is nothing but gray.

I need you.

with out , you.

i have NOTHING to say .

I LOVE you. and i always will no matter what. no first impressions. (:

I dont want sentences. i dont want to fear.

i dont want you. with out your laugh, your smile.

please.

Stop this nonsence.

Stop this war.

STop! this horrid WORLD from fighting. and from hurting the hearts of inocent souls. what are we doing wrong!?

STOP KILLING AND START HEALING, START LOVING!

MAKE LOVE - NOT WAR.

AbC

Broken glass.

Tear drops fade.

passing twisters glide by the corner of my eye

Summer.

i want to get to know myself.

my sarrows.

My abilities.

my trials.

God is with me daily. Passing through my head like a cloud.

I miss u.

I miss your smile.

Please summer days instead of passing me by come towards me and let your light shine through my shades.

Winter:

Jackets

breeze

snow

sleds

Hot chocolate

Summer:

tanning.

love

laughter

Take care of me. Feel with me. Cry with me. Abide with me.

Fox. taste.

The same.

caviar. Never heard of it.

Fish eggs? not going to eat those pour innocent souls.

tears.

Feeling

Saving. myself.

FEEL ME- LOVE ME

open up to me

bumps running down my arms. what is this world coming to?
road kill on the street.
Butterflies. passing by my window.
i love this face. its haunted.
Look and the words may find you..
please let me in? and never let

...............go.................................
please be with me.
when i grow.
old.
and alone
sweat.
your eyes. bright up my day
SURPRISE!
Fire. Rain. Sun.
Love. Hate. jealousy.
please find me.
in your soul.
im there knocking.
i need your arms.
rapped around me tight. I need you.
i need to feel protected.
that someone in this wonderful planet cares about me.
Cares about my heart.

............... im home.
feeling so alone. please
be with me? never never ever. let me leave you.

i need.

Life.

ETC. ETC. ETC.

birds.

fly

those lullaby's

your stuck in my head. i cant get you out.

my thoughts are repeating. over and over. like a broken RECORD.

my heart will fight for you. until my heart passes. away with one other day.

thoughts. fill my head like im in a blue bin filled with baby toys. just waiting .

....................................................to get out....................................................................

I am a clean soul. forgiven of all thoughts. all things. be with me.

hold me tight.

sing me lullaby's .
read me your stories.

feed me your hunger.

i love you ;)

OPEN UP- TO ME.

Sunshine still shining.

love on the rocks. Beauty gazes. walking in the rain. gazing at the sun. life running through my finger tips. sunshine. black and white. tracing you. love your laugh.

Every one has a second chance to change. to be free. to be safe.

im going to take this change as a responsibility. i want to start fresh. with no worries. no tears. no hate. no good byes. no anger.

I dont care. what you think of me. because its not true.

Run through the rain with my bare feet. never let go of me.

peace. Love. rain.

i think of you daily. you are always on my mind.

stop hiding and start being yourself! dont let go of all the possibilities that are out there! or else. you will forget who you are. and always will be wearing a mask. take life for granted.

swim in a pool of dirty mud.

run in a feild of love. without your soulmate.

find me. on your doorstep.

SURPRISE!

ive been here. waiting. for some kind of answer. that i am not seeming to get. Love me? Hate me? Care for Me? kill for me?

i love who you are. so heres the key.

to my ever lasting eyes.

my ever lasting heart. im yours!

hope.

for

you

Hope for life.

Hope for SUmmer!

sitting on your doorstep. waiting wondering what life is like. expieriences. OPEN UP YOUR EYES TO A WHOLE NEW BEGINING!