No entrence

no entrances.
no doors.
no windows.
my head is in the clouds.. yet there is no clouds.
blocked.
no one can hurt me.
punch. angry.
slam open!
Let me out!
i am coming out..
seeing a whole new world around me.
like a new born taking its first real breath.
want to know why? my head is in the clouds?
because.. i am PAINTING the sky..
and painting the sunset... pink and yellow and orange..
adding every detail to the sky as i want.. so i can enjoy my life in it.
the in crowd?
no im random.
im not going into what everyone makes me..
im standing outside the box!
a deep hole.
is in my heart.
im missing something.
a deep hole.
outside my house.
jump in?
ill see whats in there.
i want to fall down a hole.. and find my wonderland.
with rainbows for doors.
Plug me in.
im charging..
my battery is low.
but your love will make me fill all the way to the top.
dont use me.
im not just my body.
im also: my heart, my personality, my eyes.
i can be 1,000,000 different people.
all at the same time.
for you i would be one person.
and stay with you forever.